I miss...

Being pregnant. Today I had my 2 week postpartum visit with the dr to check my recovery. While I was in the waiting room a pregnant lady and her husband walked out and without any warning I started to cry. I got control of myself and was taken back to the exam room and next door another lady was having a non-stress test done and I could hear the heartbeat of her baby. So I of course started to cry again. Am I a horrible parent because I miss being pregnant? I love my baby and I am so glad that she is here and I get to see her and hold her and hear her but I miss feeling her move inside my belly. The feeling of being sad about not being pregnant caught me by surprise and was something that I did not expect at all. Someone could have warned me...sheesh! Am I normal? Has anyone else ever felt this or am I just so over-tired that the thought of being pregnant is just so much easier than the thought of having a newborn?

On another note...tomorrow I have to take Carly to Phoenix Children's Hospital for a brain ultrasound and then to see the neurosurgeon. This will hopfully give us an idea of any improvements or regression with the swelling and give us an idea of when or if a shunt will be placed. Keep your fingers crossed for us!

Sunday night Carly had her first bath at home. This did not go well at all! I got her in her little tub and started to wash her body. Just as I was getting ready to take her out to wash her hair she pooped! For those that haven't experienced newborn poop...very messy! I got her out and wrapped her in her towel while I washed the tub out and poured new water in it. She then pee'd in her towel, followed by pooping again. I finally got her cleaned, out, dried off and in a diaper very quickly. This is by the way how most of our diaper changes go. I had no idea that girls could spray just like little boys do!

Finally, we saw the pediatrician on monday. She's doing great! When we came home last friday she weighed 5 lbs 1 oz and on monday she weighed 5 lbs 5 oz. Yea!!! We're getting bigger!